Trying to be strong, for far too long.

So what is the real meaning of being okay? and what does it really feel like?
The people around you you get angry at them, for their help, you just don't want help.
You feel so alone, you feel soo degraded it's killing you inside.
You haven't been happy for a while.
Your even faking your smile.
Nobody understands and i mean NOBODY.
Their judging you. They don't even know.
You have this constant knot inside you and it just won't go away, How could you put such an act on for soo long yet you can't manage to put yourself into once piece.
Your cries, they're over nothing.
Your screaming, they're not heard.
Your friends, they're not there.
Your family, they're not understanding.
Your fears, they're haunting you.
Your insecurities, they're reminding you how worthless you really are.
Your waiting, Your expecting the worst, Yet you still hope for the best.
You know your going to be let down, Yet you still bare that pain.
You want somebody to blame.
You've got no one but yourself to blame.
This pain it just won't go away.