Fuck with my friends or family, Your fucking with me.

Had alot of fun with my girls Mitrovic and Gilberts today, my two lovely canberra girlies.
Todays life lesson; DO NOT FUCK AROUND WITH 3 SHORT GIRLS...okay yeah our height may be a problem but don't underestimate what we can do if you fuck around with anyone we care about, Poor Sonjaaa i love you! i reckon it's absoloutely hilarious how immature some 21 year old canberra gangas can be picking on 17 year old girls oh it's absoloutely mature and everything and just getting with 18 year old boys and always trying to catch attention of Sonja's boyfriend yeaaaah. she's gonna be regreting that.

-----------------MOVING ON TO ANOTHER NOTE :) -----------------------------------
I MAY BE MOVING TO SYDNEY AT THE START OF NEXT YEAR!!!! woooo!!! :) soo excited, fair cut considering i wanted to go to Uni in Wollongong or Canberra but hey Performing arts school working with people in the industry sounds WAAAAAY more fun =) i'm soo stoked on that at the moment.
this monday got photoshoots in Canberra with baby girrrrrrrl Laura! :D soo excited.
alright i had a shit load to write and now i don't so GOODBYE!

Karma's a bitch and so are you ;)

Ahhh yesterday was soo delightful! had one of the bestest days ever, went to Ully, got taken out for lunch seen the most beautiful sites i've never ever been able to see looking over the whole of Ulladulla then got taken to see eclipse, had an amazing time got pampered just like a wittle pwincess ahaha no it was really lovely :) got to see all my old friends i haven't seen from there in ages so that was very good as well woke up one very happy girl today which was quite the transition from my usual.
got another email back from the Surry Hills acting school, and it's another call back audition, things are running smoothly right now don't know how long it will last for...but hopefully longer than usual.
Stephanie Jane Williams my sexy arse prostitute gets a mention in this blog, simply because she's that good looking and i miss her that much she's out in the middle of nowhere playing with sheep....so can't wait for her arrival home.
Ever since My best friend, Laura has had her p's everything's been amazing, soo many road trips and fun times wish their could be documentation of every moment....i would carry my camera everywhere but i'd look like a complete douche bag things heavier than me haha.
Anyways on a last note i'd like to leave in sayingggggg....
Yeah i guess you could just sit there bitch about how much you hate me and the whole situation and how you don't like it but still doesn't change the fact i'm happy i have the upper hand and your just a jealous bitch, karma's a bitch ain't it honey? and so are you ;) wowww looks like i win this time.
now you know exactly what it feels like to have someone you care about out of your hands.

Slicky Sunday

So it's Sunday 1.36pm just arrived at Laura's house and finding ourselves a bit lost for what to eat for lunch, this is pretty much my second home for those of you that don't know, my second parents, my best mate and sister, and little brother kurt :)
i'm here more than anywhere else pretty much haha.
So got an email back from an acting school in Surry Hills and i'm in for a summer acting program with Aidan Jefferies off Home and Away pretty exciting stuff, pretty much spending the time training with vocals and acting with actors, set training etc and working with camera techniques and all that, learning american accents and just going into studios most the time.
Heading to Ulladulla tomorrow finally going to see Eclipse! verrrryy excited!
My throats being a bitch today soo sore i think it's because i slept with the heater on too high my throat goes all dry and yucky, i sounded like a broken record this morning but nothing a strepsil (EWW THEY'RE DISGUSTING) and a bottle of Fiji water can't fix :) and simply a cup of Earl Grey teaaaa! (best ever)
I find myself alot happier today got my happy boots on, leather jacket and fingerless clothes i guess they're what i like to call 'happy clothing'
hahahaha.
well it'a 1.40 i'm going to mung down some deliki food.
God Bless!

Film Industry?

So for the last two days i've been applying for auditions i stumbled across the Breaking Dawn one, now for some of you that don't know hat that is it's the next edition to the Twilight Saga, i've currently got a cold at the moment so i'm praying to God no agencies etc call me i sound horrible haha the Holidays have finally started so i thought maybe two weeks of relaxing? NOT A CHANCE! soo much school work to do and applications to fill! geeeezzzz!!! so at the moment in the middleof filling out applications for a new Teenage reality tv show premiering in Brisbane, few other ones Mtv and Disney channel, a few tv ads and minor short films, and in the summer going to attend a workshop at Screenwise where Aiden Jefferies from Home and away went to school and go in for an audition for the school fingers crossed! ahhh gotta save up for the screen teen american course where we learn to do a proper american accent in front of cameras, proper dialogue and profressional actors too :) soooo excited!

Trying to be strong, for far too long.

So what is the real meaning of being okay? and what does it really feel like?
The people around you you get angry at them, for their help, you just don't want help.
You feel so alone, you feel soo degraded it's killing you inside.
You haven't been happy for a while.
Your even faking your smile.
Nobody understands and i mean NOBODY.
Their judging you. They don't even know.
You have this constant knot inside you and it just won't go away, How could you put such an act on for soo long yet you can't manage to put yourself into once piece.
Your cries, they're over nothing.
Your screaming, they're not heard.
Your friends, they're not there.
Your family, they're not understanding.
Your fears, they're haunting you.
Your insecurities, they're reminding you how worthless you really are.
Your waiting, Your expecting the worst, Yet you still hope for the best.
You know your going to be let down, Yet you still bare that pain.
You want somebody to blame.
You've got no one but yourself to blame.
This pain it just won't go away.

Greetings....

Greetings, so my last blogging was a while ago....February if i can remember correctly day before soundwave so i'll give you a quick low down, Soundwave was absoloutely amazing one of the best days of my life, such great people, i got destroyed in the alexis pit yeaop some massive arse dude jumped on my head that's just always appealing...the april long weekend was awesome, then the holidays were just endless fun many many many trips to canberra as a matter of fact going tonight :) probably after i finish writing this..umm Attended Groovin' The Moo Festival in canberra now that was great, The Only (Mother F**king Rave Party) such great DJ's front row of them, miami horror, ajax, bag raiders and yacht club dj's it was good the whole of South Coast migrated to Canberra soo good had the crew up there...
Everythings been quite great lately with my girls once again ridin' solo with them having the time of my life haha sept it's just me & Steph the rest are cruising with their 'doobs' and we're kickin' back...hmmm upcoming events well....
this weekend, canberra.
next weekend, sydney.
following weekend, canberra for the long weekend :)
week after that i got to sydney for 3 days get back thursday rest one day then up to canberra with moni and laura and steph for the weekend verrrry excited!
hmmm looked on the net today and Laura and i got our eyes on
-Winterbeats, ne-yo & t-pain.
-Jack Johnson.
-Michael Buble.
-Muse.
-Angus & Julia Stone.
-Rip up the Runway.
-Parklife.
-Utopia.
-DefQon.
-Stereosonic.
sooooo....who's willing to pay for all them? we'll be your new besties ONLY TRICKIN' SCREW THAT....we just gotta make decisions can't really go to all of them...
oooo got myself a copy of Session's Seven, at first hated it, but after two weeks i like it now it's really good so Laura and i have that pumpin'!
I just realised i'm going to be very very very BROKE...after June, 3 trips to canberra 2 to sydney yeah i'm screwed..and wanting to buy concert tickets after all the shoppings not going to exactly turned out as planned...
but but but but whoever wants to be my heaps good friend and buy me Jack Johnson or Muse tickets for my birthday since it's their playing 2 days after my buying and ones playing the day before YES PLEASE :)
this will probably be my last post for what 3-4 months? hahaha.
i said when i first made it that i would only use it a few times and stop whooops.
Lele overrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.....and outttttttttt :)

Slackin' Saturday.

I seriously don't know i'm that blank..........SOUNDWAVE TOMORROW!
heck yes getting out of here...hate this place and the people.